I'm kind of done with the whole "testing to see if God will throw a highly compatible partner your way" thing. Well basically the whole "wait for God to throw... anything your way" thing to. Because, I've prayed and begged without doubt. And then I've done the whole "sit and wait" and let God do the work. Neither of those have worked for me. So, I don't know what to do really, except go out there and do things ON MY OWN, which seems kinda the opposite of that I thought I believed. I'm seriously convinced that modern day 'Christians' have the wrong idea about God.

I won't really go into details out of respect of a friend, but I've strait up witnessed a youth pastor telling one of his students, that the abuse the child was getting from his parents, was due to his immaturity.

WHO IN THE FUCK HIRED HIM?!
He was like "as a kid I was mature and therefore my parents did not abuse me" and I'm like...holy crap. Seriously though. I'm starting to question if these people who claim to have 'great faith' really have it. I'm starting to think Christians as an entirety have missed something. And God has been trying to tell us. But we're all caught up in our sunday dressing and afternoon potato salad that we've just.. missed it.

Now i'm not really sure what that is. But I get the feeling that there is this reccuring element in everyone's life that we constantly overlook.

Simple example?
Being homosexual.
No God that created Heaven and earth would just miss this huge detail.
I mean, I could kill a man - and beg for forgiveness and I would have it.
So - I pray that God forgives me if the lifestyle I choose to live is outside of his will. But it's just easier to run, then face all that pain - in most cases are people who are all alone.

Here I go off ranting again.
It's hot in here.