Hello. This is my second post of CBLF.

The previous one was around 2000 - 2004, I think. At the time I was active on BC but then left a few years later. I didn't feel I needed the community any more. And, I had been active for such a long time that it felt as if half the poster knew my RL identity, so, I was also a little afraid.

Lately, I've been lurking on both BC and CBLF, trying to decide whether I ought to say hello. Well, here it is.

Why back? I've started to feel that longing for an intimate - and I do not mean sexual - relationship, something I haven't felt for a while. I have been more or less surrounded with boys, most of whom are great, great kids, and with some I've shared great, great boy moments. But none of whom I would call a boyfriend or a loved boy or a special young friend (I don't really like the YF+SYF terminology). And, finally, when one feels lonely in this manner it is nice to share those feelings with people who have the capacity to understand.

Why CBLF? Firstly, I don't want to go back to BC. I want a fresh start, so to say. Secondly, I am Christian and perhaps CBLF will be a place to consolidate my faith.

Well. This ended up a little long winded. And boring, too - it's the same old story! But I hope I'm welcome, and I hope we'll have fun.


-Dwain