Your desires to have young boys in bed is personal - and it's meant to stay that way. No one can dictate who has the right to know what about anyone's sexuality. It's personal - sexuality. Always has been - and always will be. This is the mistake people make. Never once have I heard someone open up to the person they have feelings with this way - never once have I heard it end well. That boy now knows that every time your around him - you think of him without any pants on. Yeah - it sucks, holding it in, keeping it to yourself, not telling anyone. But your not alone, you gotta suck it up and keep it in. You gain nothing, no matter how much false pride you build up in telling someone how you feel. It all amounts to nothing. Don't take pride in your sexuality - don't accept it to the point in which you think it's natural. It's not. It's a tainted, corrupted version of what was supposed to be. Still, I'm not saying the feelings are wrong - but it's exsistance is wrong. Anyway - it's personal. People are garbage, and unworthy of your innermost feelings. Speaking of it will only lead to pain and dissapointment.