Welcome aboard Kjun I look forward to you participating here as well. Reading the posts is good but growing more than a bit requires you to do something so participate make your own posts, ask questions, comment on others' posts, etc I understand being a major low point in your life, as I'm sure most, if not all, of the other posters here do as well. Feel free to vent here as you need.

I do need to give the standard warning all new people need to know: there are people out there watching this site who want to find you because they do not like pedophiles (even if you do not identify with this term they do not care) so do not give out any personal information. We never need to know your exact age, location, job, local weather, or anything like that at all. Along those lines if you ever feel like posting an email address here do NOT post one you use for any purpose other than BL stuff so do not have it associated with any online store, social site like facebook, anything. Also use a secure email provider like fastmail and hushmail not one that gives away your ip address to people you correspond with like yahoo or other big ones. Also do not admit to anything illegal if you have done anything (not saying you have).

I know this disclaimer might be scary but that is not the point. You need to be aware of the risks as well as the benefits of participating at BL sites like this one. As long as you are careful you should be fine, if you have questions about this kind of thing feel free to ask them here.