Think about it, why would God want to punish you? Why would He single you out, or any of us, for punishment? Yes we have a hard life to live, but then so do many, many other people on this earth. There are so many who are a whole lot more unfortunate than we are. Just watch the news. Personally, I would hate to live in a place like Afganistan right now, or any war-torn place like it. But people do live there...good people, even Christian people...and they must put up with all kinds of pain and suffering, and I'm sure many of them have found a way to do so and praise God all the while. Life is tough, but God can give you everything you need to be able to live it with joy. Don't give up on God, He will never give up on you. And always remember, no matter what things look like, he is NOT out to get you!