You've Gotten some great advice and support from all who responded to your post. from my life experience I can say that once you can accept who you and what you are you can take that and use it for good and to glorify our Lord. Yes it can and is tormenting at times, but you can take what you have been given and use it to help boys and be that special person in their lives when they don't have that positive male relationship that they need so much! The devil will use this part of your life to tear you down and make your witness in this life hurt you and others. Don't give him that power over your life by your actions or your thoughts. The lord can and will use this part of your life to enable you to help others and will help you to take control over this if you allow him to work in your heart and life.

I know how you feel because I have been there and I would bet that most if not all of us have at some point in our lives. So I know how tough it is and I will be praying for you. Do not give up from reading all of the responses to your post there are a lot of members here that are praying for you as well. Take care and God Bless you!

Blaze