Where do i start? i keep asking myself this as i look at this white box, empty in front of me.

I have ALWAYS been a Boylover, even in my younger years as a boy myself i knew i was diffrent, that i liked boys, for a while i just thought that i was gay, but as i grew older the boys i liked stayed the same age, years went on and still i loved them, i dont know why i just do, the secret is hard to live with at times, going on with my normal life dong like everyone else, being a good boyfriend to my girlfriend, ackting like i am normal like the rest of the world....but i am not, my friends stop and look at a pretty women walking by, i sneek a peek at a lil boy playing, i am not or have a ever been a molester, have never done any of that. from what i read there are more then one type of BLer some do things with boys others dont, but to the world we are all the same, sick ppl that want to harm boys. I started to tell my GF about my secret, but then i got to thinking what if she freaked out on me and told everyone...that would not be a good thing. So here i am typing this here, wondering what you all will say to me, how will you treat me? Should i tell her or just keep it inside?