I try and find a balance in my life between my dream boy and the people in my life with flesh and blood. I have a good relationship with both kinds of creatures.... my dream boy lets me have things I can never have with flesh and blood people.

Imagination helps me survive as a BL.... I wouldn't like to live without it. With imagination I get to do all the things I love to do with my dream boy... he particularly likes to drive sports cars (something we could never afford to do in the real world).... /sighs contently.

But... please... don't hate yourself for having desire.
Sure it's frustrating to be where we are but there's no need to make it overwhelming.

Acceptance is key.

Accept you're a BL.... accept the limits you have to live under.... accept your desire... it's ok to have this ideal boy you speak of and it's also ok if he never exists.... we can live with pain and disappointment and still have a great and fulfilling life they aren't contradictory.

People are important. Make sure you have lots of healthy relationships with people.... it's much easier to live without a sexual relationship if you have good people around you who care about you.

Blessings
Cat.