Here are some points of advice I would offer.

*Change is going to happen. There is nothing you can do to stop it. Best to accept that and roll with it when it comes.... rather than resist it and get stuck living in "I-wish-I-was-somewhere-else-ville". The problem with living in that place is you always fail to see how cool where you are living is.

*I found that I had all these wishes with my yf. Most of them could never come true. So I decided to forget about having wishes and agendas and just enjoy what I got. What I found was that I got loads of great times and moments and opportunities to treasure forever. Whenever I found myself wishing for more I made a deliberate choice to let the wishes go... "no YF agendas" was my mantra. It really helped.

*As much as having a yf is wonderful... I think you need to find friends across a variety of ages and be a part of some kind of a community. Church communities are great for this kind of interaction. I'm a Peter Panner myself... a boy trapped in an adult's body. But I've learnt that I am clever enough to not only function in the adult world but to enjoy it a bit too. Adult friends are much better equipped to give you the kind of support you need and care for you emotionally .... then you can just enjoy your YF as a friend.... without needing him to give you what a boy can't give.

*Finally, life travells in cycles. Remember this. When you are in a good cycle keep sober about it... enjoy it while it lasts but know that it won't be like this forever. When you are in a bad cycle don't get drowned by it. Have your time of sadness and grief but remember... before long... the cycle will change and something good will come again. If you want to stay always in the good times you aren't living in reality and you'll just end up getting hurt over and over. There is a famous proverb... don't know where it's from... "This too shall pass". Sobering and helpful to remember.

Godbless you mate. I pray you may enjoy life with your YF for many years to come.

Blessings
Cat.