I think most of us who post on this site understand our emotional and sexual desires towards the boys in our lives. This is a subject that doesn't need further exploration. Besides understanding myself better, my problem is in how people like us are viewed in society. The trollers to this site make my point perfectly. Every so often I go through bouts of self loathing and depression, and they always center around my boylove orientation. Every poster more experienced than myself says to just keep going and eventually I will be experienced enough myself to see things differently. I feel that I may not be able to wait.

I am not sure how to handle my desires. I know that my heart has my YF's best interest as the most important, but that leaves me open to crushing sadness. My question is to the more experienced posters. How do you handle the overwhelming stigma of being a boylover? Everything else in the world seems to be acceptable, even in the eyes of religion, except being a boylover. Is it easier to remove yourself from being around boys, or would that just make things worse? Has anybody found a fulfilling relationship with the YF in their life? There are so many questions I wish had an answer. The more I think about it, I get more depressed. I seek answers, but every religion, every group, everybody seems so against me. I just want to be with my YF as I would any "normal" relationship that withstands the test of time. I know I am all over the place, but I feel like most of the posters will completely understand and have some sage advice.