Sound Famaliar?
Submitted by Ngc224c on July 30 2000 21:00:27
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Last year I met a boy who was 12. His name was Mike. He had blonde hair and blue eyes and was absolutely adorable. I was immediately attracted to him. I guess you could say that I fell in Love with him. I didn’t know better. I didn’t understand my attractions or emotions. I was immature in these areas. One night, we were walking down our neighborhood street and he and I talked about our upbringings. I found out that we both had a step mother and half brothers. I found out he ran away from home just like I had done twice when I was 10 and 12. I found out he had difficulties in his house especially getting along and co-existing with his step-mom, just like me growing up. Truth is, I discovered a lot of similar traits in the both of us, particularly the way we had and were growing up. In just a short time, my attraction to him developed into a concern for him and his every day life. I knew what he was going through. I tried talking to his dad too see if he would let me and Mike talk and hang out. He said no. He said he considered it inappropriate for a 22 year old to hang out with a 12 year old. So he banned me from talking and seeing Mike. But I continued to see him and talk to him because Mike let me. I wrote him letters when I couldn’t say things to him in person and I bought him a radio to talk to me when we were apart. I would write to him telling him that I loved him and I cared about him and I was always thinking about him. I wanted him to now that someone cared and Loved him because he was so depressed when we talked and I knew why. One night he tried to reach me on the radio I gave him to call me on and he couldn’t reach me after several attempts. He tried so many times that his parents discovered what he was doing and in less than thirty minutes, his parents had all the letters I had written to Mike and they took the Radio I gave him and they called the Cops on me. Two weeks later, I had an Injunction (restraining order) to keep me away from Mike. It was over. I will never forget how I felt. One month later, I was on my way home from work and I had to drive past Mike’s house to get to mine, the same way I had always driven before. They saw me and in ten minutes the cops were at my house and I was arrested. One month later, I was sentenced for 6 months in jail and 12 months Probation. All for driving past Mike’s house. I didn’t even make eye contact nor did I look in the direction of the house. One thing did happen when I was in Jail and I ultimately think God had everything to do with this. I got closer to Jesus. I learned who he was and why I had to give my life to him. I came out of jail and I was determined to put this behind me even though I still Loved Mike and was ever more concerned for him. I left it alone. Then last month in June, I asked my Mom to write a letter to Mike’s Mom to express my apologies and to see if there could be a peace between us. Mike’s mom called the state attorney that prosecuted me last year and the attorney issued a Violation and a warrant for my arrest. I have had a warrant for my arrest for a month now and I haven’t turned myself in because I know I can win this and show that I did nothing wrong. My attorney is still fighting this so I have no further information. Gentlemen, this is the price to pay for being a Boylover and having genuine and righteous feelings and emotions towards young Boys. This is what I am going through for Loving this Kid and wanting the best for him and absolutely caring about him and doing anything for him. I never did anything to him or even talked about it. I loved him like a brother and a parent should, not like his parents obviously didn’t. How can any of you even comment on the Pain I feel and go through because of this? How many of you have even had this happen to you? If any of you feel the least qualified to help me discern this, I will forever be in debt to you. All my Love and May God Bless you all for existing. Chris |
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