oh my, what a summer, and what a God we serve...

hi all i know some of you here, and some not. but hi to all anyway. i havent been here but twice i think since about may, but i have been busy. but i miss coming here and hearing from xian bl's. the Lord is doing wonderful things here, and in my life. work this summer went extremely well. a lot of young hearts were touched by Him this summer...and quite a few accepted Him. Praise the Lord! despite all the day to day struggles of being a boylover and xian and working with boys, i would not trade it for anything. and the Lord has blessed me with a Godly relationship with many local boys. i see them in walmart, on the street, everywhere. there are a number that i can just stop by for a while and play video games with (losing every game, i might add...), then chat for a while with their xian parents, and the parents are just thrilled that i follow up with these boys! (heh, like i need any more incentive...) i am still looking for some regular work, and housing is kind of up in the air. but i have the peace inside that tells me that the Lord is already working on it for me, and has been for a while. so i will wait upon Him, and when He is ready, i will go. for now i have plenty of temp work, more actually than i can do, and a place to live. (just a random side note: He has been impressing upon me the importance of tithing. He gives us all we ahve, literally, and asks only ten percent back. He says in His word He will bless us beyond count if we tithe, and although it hurts sometimes when the last money i have is just the right amount to be 10percent of my last check, when i can give it to Him and trust, He has never let me down.) i have a WONDERFUL CHURCH! this church is what i think i have been subconsciously looking for all my life...i walk in the sanctuary, sometimes a little late, and i think in my headd...hmmmm, I am home... and that is awesome. they are very liberal and open while being extremely biblical, which is cool. and get this: i was talking to one of the leaders about praying together and possibly being an accountability partner, and he said mentioned that there are some men at that church with severe sexual hangups, as he put it, "men, women, children...you would never know to look at them." that is literally what he said. i am praying and thinking about talking to the pastor. i know they would be accepting of a gay man (non prac. of course), but i dunno bout a pedo. but we will see. and He has provided ways for me to be involved with local kids, making a positive difference, in a way that will most likely be easy for me to keep up a godly mindset. and man, He has been working in my heart and soul.... as i give myself up to Him, my old self dies and is burned like the hay and stubble. dying is a violent process, and as I die to myself and my earthly desires, it in painful in the extreme, and i resist. but i persevere, and He is there to comfort me all the time.... and I am closer to Him than ever before.... to all the folks i exchange random email with: bless you all. bach, check yer mail, although you probably already got my message... chris, i see you are back online. drop me a line, i dont have your emaill addy anymore. mark, you got mail too. fod, i am praying for you and yer yunguns'...and wats up with our chess game??? (we should play online realtime sometime, to actually finish the game....hehe) to anyone who saw marks prayer request and prayed for me, thank you from the bottom of my heart. the Lord walks with me, holding my hand, moment by moment....and i love it... see y'all grace and peace scott