Despite our sin, God loves us.
Submitted by Once a Boy on October 20 2000 19:06:22
In reply to Stand up and be accountable submitted by Comfort on October 20 2000 18:14:39
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First, I don't think I must confess my sin to a pastor or the world. Granted, they may be able to help me with this or they may judge me unfairly. I am not Catholic, so I don't think I need to bring my sin before man. I believe I must bring my sin before God. I also share my sin here, because I find it beneficial to share my thoughts and concerns with you. Do realize that we are all at different places in regards to this issue and our walk with God. I am saddened to hear you confessed your sinful thoughts, and now you are interacting with the boy only with others watching you, watching you like you are the devil. The parents have sins also. Do they share these with you? You said your pastor has been looking out for your spiritual growth. Does this treatment build you up or tear you down? How do you grow spiritually by always having to be with others when you are with boys? How do you grow spiritually when others look at you with such judgement? Does your pastor sin? Does he tell you about his sexual desires for a woman at church? Or a man? Or a goat? I am saddened by your acceptance of your sin being more devasting than their sin? As an outsider, it seems to me they are treating you unfairly. I am happy for you with your new relationship with a woman. I had a relationship with a woman, but this desire did come back. Never guessed it would, but if it hadn't, I would never have drawn closer to God. One way or another God will cause you to draw closer to Him. I am not saying this desire will come back 5 or 10 years from now, but if you think you have victory, you will be humbled. We cannot be perfect. God just wants us to love and trust Him. If we put our faith in a pastor or a woman, in place of God, God will, in time, show us our need for Him. Although I don't know the details, your story sounds sad to me. I pray you are well now and tomorrow. I pray your relationship with the woman will grow and become all that it can be. However, temptation will not leave. You could have a son some day. What then? Does the pastor and the church sleep over your house to watch you with your boy? Sooner or later, you will have to interact with boys without supervision. What then? From my experiences, walking through the fire has brought me closer to God. Best Wishes, Once a Boy |
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