Re: Done Here
Submitted by Once a Boy on October 23 2000 19:07:59
In reply to Done Here submitted by Comfort on October 23 2000 09:48:18
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I guess if you want to go, then best wishes. I have enjoyed hearing your views. Not everyone will agree all the time. You suggest that we want to stay trapped in lusting after boys. I don't think this is true. I am in this group to see where others are in their walk regarding this issue. I am pleased to have found others like myself struggling with this issue. I suppose I have looked around the earth and have seen no one is perfect. I believe God wants us to love one another despite our imperfections. "The second most important commandment: Love your neighbor as you love yourself." - Matthew 22:39 How can I love...how can I shine with a ball and chain around my foot. Everyone who lives has some type of ball and chain. Some only look at the severity of their situation and ask why. Others, think their lust for woman is fine, because it is an acceptable sin. No sin is fine, and everyone sins thousands of times a day. Do we honestly love others? Do we fail in what God really wants from us? God wants us to love Him! "Jesus said, 'Love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, and with all your mind. This is the greatest and most important commandment.'" - Matthew 22:37,38 We fail our Lord thousands of times a day! Everyone aches over some issue, some sin. Yet why is one sin greater than another? The lusting of boys is only one sin that keeps us distant from God. This focussing on this one sin brings us further away from God. I don't mean to sound so accepting of my desires and all, but it is only one facet of me. I am many things, and I will sin against God in so many ways. How can I, every minute and every second, Love the Lord with all my heart and all my soul? I ask for forgiveness, and I know He has made changes in me over the years. But molding me into perfection is not what he has given me. He has given me grace! Praise God! Life on earth is not the true treasure. I believe in my heart that God loves us despite our sinful natures. Therefore, I feel I would be unpleasaing to God if I just rolled over and let this one sin consume my very soul. I suppose I am saying that Jesus died so in a sense I have freedom from sin. I love myself despite my imperfections, because God loves me! Your ideal is great, and God definitely can do anything. "With God all things are possible."- Matthew 19:26 There are times however when God chooses not to act, not to change us. I believe it is His way of forcing us to come to Him, to have a relationship wth Him. If God miraculously took this desire from us, then something else would have to create the hole in our heart so that we would seek Him out. That's God's desire for us! He wants us so much! I believe, right now, God definitely wants me to have this desire. I cannot change this desire in my heart. Only God can. I wait for Him, but in the mean time, I will love God by attempting to love others as I would like to be loved. For me, I feel the only way to be close to God is to be brave and stand up to my sin. "Even though I go through the valley of darkness I will not be afraid, Lord, for you are with me." - Psalm 23:4 Your philosophy is fine. I just remember the young rich man who asked Jesus what must I do in order to get into the kingdom of heaven? Jesus replied, "Keep the Commandments," The man said he did. Jesus said to him, "If you want to be perfect, go and sell all you have and give the money to the poor; and you will have riches in heaven; then come follow me." - Matthew 19:21 The man could not do it. Why? Becuase we are all selfish in one way or another. None of us are perfect! Praise God that He forgives us! Our desires for boys is a sin like so many sins. Is one sin greater than another? I am not going to let the sin create distance from God. I accept His forgiveness! I will shine on; I will pray to God. I will lay my tears before Him to help me with the boys. I will relate with boys, and if the deisire comes, God will comfort me. I will get involved, because my soul is more than the sexual desire; I will build up and not tear down! I will learn what love is..by having patience in the Lord and exhibiting kindness towards my fellow man. God has done many things in my life, and I do believe He has brought me so many boys to love. My life is blessed by having relationships with boys. I see growth in them, and in myself, and I feel closer to God by interacting in loving ways towards my fellow man. And despite my sinful nature, I have truly loved them, and they have loved me. I don't mean to be so preachy, but this is where I am at this time in my life in regards to this issue. God can remove this desire from you, but be careful for what you ask for. If God wants you, He will find a way to create a different and more severe hole in your heart so that you will draw closer to Him. Loving a boy isn't so bad. In fact, I think God is pleased by it. Right now, in many bed across the land, there are boys crying and praying to God for someone to help them out of the darkness. God hears their cries, and I believe He wants us to get involved in boys lives. Do you think you can reach out and touch a boy's heart? Being with a boy can bring both of you into the light. God has crossed my paths with so many, and I have been blessed in so many ways....keep faith! God does love us. ~ Once a Boy |
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