about my family
Submitted by kiowas on October 14 2001 17:57:56
| Some of the responses to my post seem to insinuate that I am overly paranoid about what my family thinks. Well, I am paranoid, but it is for a reason. See...I wouldnt be the first pedophile in the family. I would only be the latest. Things have happened in the past in our family that caused the current state of paranoia about pedophiles. None are more paranoid than my mom, however. It was one of her worst fears while we were growing up that something might happen to us. She told me on more than one occasion of nightmares she had on the subject. When I was a kid, I remember being reprimanded for hanging out with children younger than myself (and I remember being forced to go play with kids my own age, whom I simply didnt get along with). When my mom began to suspect I may be gay/pedophile (or at least around the time when I became aware of it), she told me I should pray that God protect me because there are 'bad things' that run in our family. So, the fact that she is paranoid about this as much as I am is quite evident. Something else needs to be clarified...she doesnt understand the difference between gays and pedophiles, in her mind it is gays who molest young boys, so when she accuses me of being gay, in her mind, she is at the same time accusing me of being a pedophile. Ive heard her say on several occasions (talking about gays) that she feels sorry for their parents because to have a gay son is the worst thing that could happen to a parent. So, needless to say...(and I get teary eyed as I write this) but I am my mothers worst dream come true..and all I wanted was to make her proud. |
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