Re: To all: Strong words and weak deeds?
Submitted by Bill on 2002-06-13 07:57:18, Thursday
In reply to Re: To all: Strong words and weak deeds? submitted by ATN on 2002-06-11 14:53:31, Tuesday
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I have to agree that God cannot look upon physical activity with anything but hatred, although I have on occasions tried to believe otherwise. I also agree that if we let our thoughts dwell on the physical aspects of a boy then we are letting go of the "whatsoever things are pure" etc. I have yet to discover how to take every thought captive. Others suggest a giving of every part of us to God first thing in the morning as a living sacrifice. Has anyone really been able to overcome the physical attractiveness of a boy which results in wrong thinking by this or any other means? I need your help in this, as the last few months has seen a major drift from holiness on my part. I am just thankful that we can come to God in confession and repentance and know that He still loves us (and I can't think why) and will forgive. But how to come in repentance when I know that the next cute boy I see will result in unholy thoughts? I know that there are practical actions we can take like never going onto chat lines where there might be boys, or not doing any activities that involve boys, or not even going to places where boys hang out. But there are boys in church, there are boys in the street, there are boys on the train ... We cannot avoid them! Sometimes I will deliberately turn my head away, but I find I do not always "remember". I find it amazing that some BL can spend a lot of time with a particular boy without ever thinking sexual thoughts about him. Yes I know we can avoid acting on them, and hopefully few or none of us do so act, but the thoughts are there - the desire to put an arm round him, and then I guess if that happened, the thought of the next step ... What the authorities call grooming. Sorry this has been such a ramble, but I really do need help to remain holy for God - and at this moment in time this is my desire - to be holy. Please pray for me - and any hints or suggestions would be welcome. God bless Bill |
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