My dear brother,
Submitted by Huck Finn on 2002-06-18 23:22:48, Tuesday
In reply to Shattered Dreams submitted by Ben on 2002-06-18 20:46:48, Tuesday
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IF you want someone to listen and you just wanted to vent, then I say to you, I understand. If this were Real LIfe, I'd put my arm around you and say, yeah, I hear ya. It's hard. And I'd sit with you for hours as we both cried and asked why. And if this picture somehow makes you feel better and you don't want to hear anything else, then just take that and stop. Because i know some times I just need to know I'm not alone. So let me tell you, I understand. I feel the same a LOT. God bless you. HE and I are with you Huck If you want me to try to help and talk things through with you, continue reading for a bit. One thing I wanna hit on... Christian and Bible tell you keep faith and be strong. BL's tell you to be yourself. Yeah. that's something I struggle with too. Who am I? I mean what does being myself mean? Do I really WANT to be lusting after these beautiful boys? I mean sure... why not. They have these beautiful bodies. I mean what? God gave them to the boys didn't He? They look like they're having so much fun. So smooth and pure and innocent... ok well, sometimes they're innocent. hehehe I know my 13 year old boys can seem innocent, but they're really not. Anyway... I have to ask myself, is that what I want with these boys? To lust after their bodies? I mean seriously, it's kind of the same problem for those who struggle with pornography. It takes some serious questioning of self feelings and worth. So, I'm here at the pool (speaking of present experience and it was Ironic that you used the same example) and there are these beautiful boys. What do I myself want to do with this? Eh... I don't know where I'm going with this. But perhaps that's a question we both need to ask ourselves... I know I go very slightly to myself... ohh.... because they're so beautiful. But what then, are we going to do about it? Perhaps we need to focus our feelings. As Christains, we NEED To focus and be strong. Stand Firm. And if we do or not, that doesn't change that God is real. If we turn our back on him or not... and I know we're not going to be pleased with ourselves if we get to Heaven and Jesus is standing there... and we know we were too selfish to keep him as the main part in our lives.... Isn't that who WE truly are? Children of God? Be ourselves.... yeah we need to do that. We are BLs... so what? Maybe God's got a woman for us (I pray he's got one for me). Maybe he's got a boy for us to love for many years and watch him grow and get married and have kids. As for me... who am I is who God wants me to be. I'm not perfect. But hey, I'm ME. Feel free to E-mail me. I don't know if I was very clear, because I'm very tired. The day at the pool killed my eyes.. Chlorine and all. God bless you my friend, Huck Finn |
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