Aerosmith was right....
Submitted by Reason Filled on 2002-10-22 00:40:19, Tuesday
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I probably get to share a bed with my nephew, on average, once a month. My problem is, I simply cannot sleep when he is next to me. I just lay there with my arms around him and marvel at his beauty (not just physical, but as a whole entire being). I make it through most of the next morning but I just hit empty that afternoon, because I have had no sleep. I have tried forcing myself to sleep, I have even rolled over to face the other way from him, just so I can catch a little shut eye, but my mind won't allow me to fall asleep. It just can't stand the thought of missing a single moment being there with him, feeling his complete trust as he sleeps in your arms. I even find myself trying to FORCE myself to cherish every moment, as I recall all the other nights when I am not sharing a bed with him, and I just hug a pillow wishing it was him. Sleeping just never sets in. In fact, the closest I come to sleeping is when I almost pass out from joy when he wakes up for a second, in the middle of the night, turns to look at me (he is working out in his mind where he is, and who is with him) then moves over to cuddle up closer to me. I guess it's a good thing I only sleep with him every 4 or 5 weeks. But I wondered if anyone else has experienced this problem. You see, I have only been doing this for 2 or 3 years now. Will I grow more used to this? Will I finally be able to sleep with a boy next to me? |
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