Re: My crisis of faith....
Submitted by Reason Filled on 2002-10-28 11:02:31, Monday
In reply to My crisis of faith.... submitted by Ringo on 2002-10-28 10:05:21, Monday
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I have been where you are. It made no sense to me that desires ,so strong in me, were so wrong. I mean, they aren't about sexual gratification so much as they were about love, and desire to be close. I could see why the perverts who just sought sexual gratification by getting off on innocent kids, or homosexuals that went to bath houses, ect, were being sinful, but my feelings, at least I thought, were based on love. What I realized is that psychology is VERY real, and all my symptoms fit. I was not loved in any physical manner by my father, or any adult male, when I was a boy. That left a considerably sized hole in me. When I desire sexual relations with a boy, I am attempting to fill that hole. You see, that desire to be close through sex is naturally a part of us. If we develop normally, that desire manifests toward the opposite sex. If ingredients are missing (loving parents, closeness to God, ect) then the results can be rather skewed. I can sit here and explain all day, but your only real answer can come from God. No problem is "too bad" to go to God with. He loves you, no matter what. Seek out, in your heart, what he truly wants of you. God Bless, RF |
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