Not sure about myself
Submitted by Altima on 2002-11-27 19:29:56, Wednesday
In reply to I kinda agree submitted by Reason Filled on 2002-11-27 17:50:27, Wednesday
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As well as the physical attraction to young males that has led me to this community in the first place, I also find myself attracted to females, usually of a more socially acceptible age, like my own age. I don't tend to get attracted to younger girls. Anyway, that could be considered a very socially acceptible form of attraction, but at 17 I've never kissed anyone. I've never touched anyone in a remotely sexual way. I could cynically say this was due to lack of opportunity, or due to the fact that maybe girls don't like me. Who knows. Despite living in a culture that is very accepting of heavy drinking, even at my age, I've never had more than a couple can of beer in a night. I've never put a cigarette to my lips, nor have I used drugs (Well, I was on Valium and Morphine in a hospital once...) I'm not saying this to prove I'm some sort of saint, because I'm not. A lot of times I find myself regretting my current state, there's always that side of me that runs cold with fear at the thought of growing older. The side of me that thinks my life will be over by 20, and that I should start "living" now. But... I always seem to overcome my unsavory thoughts (Or perhaps I run away from them... maybe I'm just a coward?) So considering my near-complete lack of indulgence in those areas, I would probably trust myself in such a situation, but I just don't know. I often read about ancient Greece and the love system they had in place then... sometimes I just feel jealous, like they were living in a more elightened time. Then I remember they thought thunder was hurled from Olympas by Zeus (Though most didn't even believe that and lived as agnostics, not knowing what to believe) |
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