I'm kind of lonely tonight
Submitted by Mavrick on 2002-11-29 19:43:50, Friday
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Hi all. Sorry that I haven't posted in a while, but I have been busy the past few days. I have read soome of the posts when I've had a chance, but not very many. lI'm feeling kind of lonely tonight. The youth group meeting was canceled because of Thanksgiving, And JR is at a friend's house for the evening. I never realized how empty the house is with out him here. I can't belive how much I miss having him around. Some of the friends I talked to said that I should enjoy it and do something I really want to do. They don't seem to understand that all I really want to do is spend time with JR. At least at work I have something to keep me busy. Have you ever felt that way, or is it just me? I miss hearing him chatter on about something that happened at school, or making fun of the news caster on T.V. or just the way he comes in and gives me a hug for no reason other than to say he loves me. God I miss having him around. He's had his friends over many times and I love having the house fulled with the noise and laughter. Even if I'm not involved in what's going on, the sound of it keeps my heart lite. Right now I want to go over to his friend's house and just give him a hug and tell him I miss him, but I know that would not be a good thing to do. Oh well, let me bring you up to date on what is happening here. We sold JR's mom's house to a wonderful couple. They moved in a few days ago and have been very friendly. JR has not gone over since they moved in. I think he's having a hard time with someone else being in the house. I out in a purchase offer on a house that both JR and I like. It's larger than the one that we have now and it is secluded. JR was rather insistant on that part, but didn't tell me why until this past Monday. It has a wonderful view of the vally and is only five minutes further than where we are now. I had a rough time with some of the people that had looked at the house. I talked to a few people about it, including Andy, and prayed a lot. Finally the Lord sent me a newly wed couple that needed to move into the area. The husband had gotten a large promotin and had to move here to take it. The offer was only $500 less than what I was asking and JR kept telling me that he felt that they should have the house. So we close on this house on Tuesday and the new house on Wednesday. After I accepted the offer for the house, JR told me the reason that he wanted something secluded. He told me that he has always wanted to try being nude most of the time. I had a long talk with him about it and we decussed the "rules" for his being nude at home. Simple things like having something nearby to put on in case somebody showed up with out warning, making sure that the curtians were closed and so on. I told him that he had to realize that it could creat a problem for me if told anyone about it. He understood and promised that he would be very careful. I'm still uncertian about this and haven't made a final decission. I'd like some input from you as to what I should do. Is it appropriate? Is it unbiblical? Am I missing something? I am a nudest at heart, but I have never told JR about it before now. I have many concerns and want to make sure I address them all. As for me, I still have the cast on and have to face surgery to have a plate put in. The doctor is concerned about the bones in the wrist deforming because they are not healing correctly. The up side is that I can write with my left hand now, though not as good as with my right, and I can type just as fast with only my left hand as I can with both hands. But this thing really itches sometimes. I will be glad to get it off. God Bless you all. Mav. |
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