The World isn't really improving, is it?
Submitted by Altima on 2003-01-22 17:58:14, Wednesday
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Here in Europe the news is filled more and more with news about paedophiles, celebrities captured and detained under child pornography charges and molesting priests. I'm seeing a lot of fear and hatred, but this is nothing new to most people, I guess. That doesn't mean it isn't awful. Sometimes I feel like, even though I've never indulged in anything, I am guilty of something. Abborence is so wrong these days that my mere existance is proof of my guilt. The Catholic Church is being assailed almost daily with new reports of misconduct among clergy. And yet the Church, rather than doing what would obviously appease the masses by punishing the priests somehow, they just coast along, riding out the storm. But these days my mind is not really focused so much on sexuality anymore, the world stage is getting frighteningly fascinating at the moment. Aggressive moves towards Iraq are difficult to make sense of. Are we watching history unfold, or just menial politics? What'll happen if America goes into its first pre-emptive war? With the world devided, even (especially) in the US itself, what will the reactions be? When one has a dictator that really does pose a threat and deserves to be removed, how does one do it? But then I remember, "Blessed are the peacemakers, for they shall be called the children of God." Throughout the years if there was one subject that fascinated me consistantly it was World War II history. I'd read my books and watch my documentaries from the safety of the present and look upon the last great campaigns of the modern age. The events were so monumental that I almost felt sorry that I couldn't experiance them. How idiotic. I'm living in times now where there is ever-increasing threats and conflicts breaking out everywhere, and for the first time I am truely scared. But I guess the question relevent to this board is, would I feel safer if I was completely straight? Much like an article I wrote for Paraklesis a while back, I'm asking how much does our sexuality determine or dominate things like emotion. In turbulent times like these does the added stress of (in my case) having to do a charade simply add onto the anxiety that I might get drafted, or bombed, or anything? With school getting more strenuous (unneccesarily so in my ever-so-humble opinion) will I have to cope with a war along with everything else? But what am I nervous for? I got through Sept. 11th, quite possibly the most stressful time in recent memory and wound up writing articles that got the attention of my whole school, except now with all the school work, I'm writing less, and hence venting less stress. These days, stress is our biggest danger, and I'm doing my best to try and keep myself free from it, but the system, the world, seems determined to keep my mind distracted. Anyone else feeling similar problems? |
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