MY 1st POST HERE, and CRY FOR HELP! :/
Submitted by KIDCODY on February 17 1999 at 19:15:10
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Hello everyone, Shoot, I just typed a whole description of my problem here and erased it because 1) I feel no one would read it, and 2) I feel maybe someone is monitoring here. :/ (goes to show what kind of mind frame I am in) Basically this is my first post here, I liked the looks of the site and was impressed with its concentration on Christian values. I currently face an array of legal charges state and federally and am in my mid 20's. The charges have mostly arose do to my own stupidity but then led to more charges against two boys I love dearly to this day and always will. (they were 14 at the time the charges allegedly took place and are about 17 now) I am so scared and confused and w/o ideas. My lawyer arranged a plea I can accept of just under 9yrs in jail and then approximately 11 years of parole. Do I take such a plea (going to court would very easily bring well over 20 years of jail time do to the counties and country they are in) or do i just run or cry or what? I have like no info and few friends to talk too. Maybe it is just best no one replies and at least I have said my piece. I to this day miss my dearest friend and his family.... do to the "fair and just" legal system I was told / committed to NOT HAVE contact with them... I dream of at least saying my apologies for the trouble i have caused and offer my friend a hug. But i am considered a child molestor who rape boys, my younger friend is considered a "boy" w/out a mind. The legal people involved deal with "scum" like me everyday and I guess I am just a name of a siko on many documents. Well anyways I have tried all ways to appease them and work with them... sex offender programs, chemical castration etc... I thought they wanted to HELP people "like me" but have found out they simply want to let us rot in jail. I have been going to a psychiatrist 2 times a week for a year, thank god for that. He has helped me so much, as have my priests reconcile and understand myself. I only want to help others and be a good person. Any comments or suggestions via the board or email is appreciate. God bless you all KidCody |