some clarification
Submitted by lawless on June 16 1999 at 15:41:10
In reply to so what do you do... Submitted by lawless on June 13 1999 at 02:15:29
|
hello all ; i'm going to try and open up alittle,for me that is'nt easy.OK...I had a life changing experience at the age of 17 I prayed that god would take away my drug addiction,the only way to describe this exp is to say I was completely overwhelmed with joy,and the desire to take drugs dissapeared.I actually felt god's presence.It can not be explained intellectualy, I KNEW he was with me.now for the bad news...this state lasted for a couple of weeks,I then made a very grave mistake...I decided to get drunk..I got drunk, sniffed some gasoline and began cursing god (I;m sure that I'll have no friends here now) but I'm being honest.Why did I do it,I believe now that his spirit was trying to lead me away from the drinking.I see now that alchohol has not produced anything good in my life.I really wish that I had listened.I also had a sexual trist with my 14 yo neighbor. I don't pray anymore,it feels like talking to a brick wall I don't have any faith,what little I had has been gone for years now I don't go to church,I feel very uncomfortable there. I deserve to be cast into the lake,but that idea scares the shit out of me. I'm sorry for coming here to vent,you folks have your own problems.I won't waste your time with this.I don't know that anyone here can help. lawless |