in a different sence
Submitted by help on February 10 2000 at 19:42:10
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i am writing this with some reluctance, mainly because i give up. i don't have any other idea. i have struggled with the boylove thing ever since my boyhood! i never believed i was gay, and i still don't, but why in Gods name am i attracted to boys?!@# i have hidden this beneath for years! i am married and now find that it has come to haunt me with a great intesity. i can't help but notice every single boy that walks by, rides by etc. i look back to my own boyhood and wish i could be there again, and when i realize that i can't i get very depressed. i am 29 years old and am very much seeking to be released from this attraction that i fail to understand. i have tried so hard to put it down, and it just keeps poppin up. Now i find boylove all over the internet, which makes it even worse because i can't stop looking, dreaming, going back to when i was a boy. thinkin of my freinds, thinkin of how much i missed out on. i was hidden in insecurity my whole life and now i .........don't know what to do but i am afraid that it is coming after my marriage which i cannot allow......damn this thing..... i am simply lookin for advice, thoughts suggestions, any insight etc. anything would be very helpful at this point. Sincerely help |