Issues...
Submitted by Steve on February 24 2000 at 20:21:51
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Hi Guys, I just want to thank everyone for making me feel so welcome over the past few weeks and I'm glad there is a group who can walk together as we struggle with these issues. I've read a lot of posts regarding masturbation, is it fair to say that others struggle with pornography and getting off on nude boys. I thought I was okay with God and that I was in control but I'm losing control. When I'm close to God I am happy to be attracted to and have a special relationship with boys, but when I'm not I just want to have sex, and this comes from the lusting over pictures. I've been a real flirt at work recently ( I work with some sexy 16 and 17 yr olds boys ) They are completely straight, yet I can't help trying to get into their pants. I'm simply unable to act on the knowledge I have that it's wrong AND harming me. I also can't honestly pray that God helps me stop, cos I get so much out of it. I would pray that God starts to institute a change of heart in me, and give me the convictions to act on what I believe. That I would come to appreciate exactly what He's done for me, and act accordingly and not selfishly. I thank God that you're standing with me. Steve |