help....
Submitted by Scott on May 23 2000 18:10:47
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hi all just got back down where i used to live to pick up some of my stuff.... is also where my ex-gf lives.... man it is painful i cry now as i write.... i hurt her....she hurt me.... we both hurt more than we had ever thought possible.... i dont know what to do what to say where i should go.... this is the last time we will see each other i think but it is intedibly painful we both wanted to get married but now it is all shot to shit... i loved her more than anything i n my life, more than my boys and sometimes mor than my god... i know it is not right but that is how i felt and now she is gone to me... and i will never see her again and never hear her voice again and never feel her hand on my arm like just five minutes ago when she said goodbye for the last time and laid her hand on my arm for the last time ever.... my God, why do you do this to me? why can i hurt and be hurt like this? why should i even continue to live? are You worth it? and i know deep inside that i will continnue to live, that life will go on, but right now there is nowthing else.... i have been hurt before but never like this.... why o God did you do this to me? why did you make me like this? why did you make me with so much love for her but i am unable to tell her and now i have lost her? why was she so perfect for me, and we fit like two pieces of a puzzle together, and she made me complete. and i made her complete and when we were together we healed each other and we could forget about all the past hurts and simply love each other and now it is all gone.... why God Why? how could you do this to me.... i dont know if i can handle it anymore... i wont be online for a while anymore, i didnt even expect to be online right now but i need to get it all out before i go and do something rash oh god this hurts scott |
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