i dont think ive felt quite so lonely in a while, maybe ever but i am at a point where i long so much to befriend a boy and become best friends. at the present i dont get out much at all so finding a boy, especially one that needs me as much as i need him, is impossible.

ok so why not get out? because i dont really have any outside related hobbies, activities etc. and i also dont really know how to pick up random boys or whatever it is that other pedos do.

someone (was it blackstone) suggested that i use R/C cars to attract boys? those things are expensive and i have slightly above zero interest in them. also when i do go out i rarely see any kids anyway so...

i dont have a church group or anything because...well im not religious at all.

right now life just feel so worthless and pointless. i am emotionally craving a boy. help?