Hello people.

I always had this idea that I would age with my yf, be a normal gay couple, and live a normal life. Unfortunately this is no longer going to be the case as he is not gay. We've had some genuine love between us, never anything physical of course, but the deepest of friendships or whatever term best describes it. He's grown up now and quite the young man.

I'm not sure how to deal with it all as I don't really want to start over and act like a predator trying to pick up boys. I also look back at all the good times we had and I don't know how to deal with these emotions of nostalgia and longing for that sweet caring person.

Yes this is the first time it's happened to me and I really thought we would end up together for good. For the time being it looks like I may have to cut myself off from him for a long time to get over him.

He was and is such an unique individual, which also led me to believe he might be 'the one'. I don't just go for any boys. I picked him because he was smart and different. I don't know if I will be able to find one like him again. I also don't want to go looking for one again and I am terrified of being old and alone. I'm still relatively young but the years go by faster and faster.

Please help. Does anyone have any happy endings where they ended up marrying or settling down with their yfs? I'm not unattractive or a weirdo or anything...