Friend, a relationship with an adult only cause you more pain and depression, please be careful!

Adults engaged with other adults don't practice love; a "normal gay couple" or straights can't love. Their relationships consist of: 1) brief, sordid and impersonal meetings or 2) longer arrangements punctuated by dramatic tirades, discords, jealousies and frequent infidelity. It could hardly be otherwise since the tone is made up of suspicion and hate, producing a darling sweetness interspersed with petty peevishness. Their "love" turns to deep contempt eventually.
The aberration is caused by a adult trying to "continue the attraction to young" but with a legal or mature adult, as happens to you, unfortunately.

Remember that the cross, not only the Christian one, is a long bar with a smaller bar that represents the dynamics of Creativity, sex, and procreation (family)which can only be achieved with nubile girls [or young boys], because attraction between adult people is an social maladjustment of an aberrated mind (such as sexual perverts and bestialists).

Also this is proved by, for example relationships with nubile girls represent the spirit rising triumphantly, ultimately transcending the turmoil of the physical universe to achieve salvation.

Adult couples should not be abused or ridiculed. But a society bent on survival must recognize any aberration as such and seek to raise people out of the low emotion that produces it.

Please as a believer in a higher being, like sane people, do not fall into this trap of a mundane decadent society, in juveniles you will only find happiness like millions of sane men before.