can you help me?
Submitted by smiley on January 28 2001 01:16:49
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I am really, really attracted to boys. I often "fool around" with my younger cousins and friends. Im only 17 and find it really weird that I can be attracted to boys. I know its illegal for men to do it with boys, but what if the one doing it, is only 17? Im scared because my father raped me when I was 8 and now Im scared that I'll end up doing the same thing to one of my younger cousins or friends. I love going to the beach with them & they thinks it cool cause Im older, but my friends (who are my age) think Im weird and need help. Do you think Im normal? I like having my younger cousins sitting on my lap or sharing my bed and stuff. The thing is, when I think about it, it makes me feel really sick & ashamed. I want to stop these feelings that I get when Im with kids, but I can't help it. I don't want to hurt them, I just like playing with them, going out with them, helping them with their homework and stuff. Sometimes when Im out with them, I get really nervous because part of me wants to go further then just "fooling around" and doing what kids normally do. What should I do? Has anyone got any advice? I can't tell me parents & don't know who to talk to. |
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