Masturbation, lust, innability to control desires.
Submitted by Disturbed on March 10 2001 02:30:19
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Hi, I'm a 20yr old christian girl-lover. I don't know of any Christian Girl-Love forums, so I hope you don't mind me posting here. I'm wondering what the Bible says about masturbation... I've always been hesitant to ask church-goers. I don't believe pleasuring one's-self is sinful, but what about the thoughts going through my mind when I do that? Is that lust? Many months ago I deleted all the pictures of little girls (nude, semi-nude) from my computer in an attempt to keep myself from using them for masturbation purposes, but I now find myself frequenting websites for pics. The fact is, I use little girls in my masturbation themes whether or not I have pics in front of me. I've been to psychologists and they make hints suggesting I try using pictures of adult females, but that doesn't work since I see the adult females in the pictures as immoral sluts. One thing I have tried to do is use older girls (13-15) in my fantasies instead of 6-10 year olds. I'm trying to slowly increase the age of the girls I use to masturbate to in an attempt to maybe one day use only adult females... it isn't working well though. Girls around 6-10 are so much more attractive to me (physically and emotionally). Masturbating to little girls wouldn't bother me much if I absolutely knew I would never act out my desires on a girl in real life, but I'm terribly worried that I may some day be in a situation where I'm alone with a young girl and won't have the will power to refrain from sexual contact. Another huge worry for me is what if someday I get married and have a daughter... will I be able to control my sexual desires? I can't stop my desire to masturbate and I can't get off thinking about adult females. I often wonder why God is letting this happen to me, I've always been a moral Christian. I'd give any amount of money to take away the sexual part of my attraction to little girls! -Disturbed |
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