Re: OK why the title boylovers?
Submitted by hopesalive on March 24 2002 17:31:27
In reply to OK why the title boylovers? submitted by sally on March 24 2002 12:43:20
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Thanks for posting again. You are asking really good questions now, as they are getting at the heart of what this place is for. I am a 21 year old college student. Through most of my life I have hated myself for these feelings. People often talked about how they should just line up all the people like me and kill us. Somewhere along the road I started to agree. I am not trying to be a victim, but I'm trying to give you some understanding of where I, and many here, are coming from. We are oucasts in this society. Not because of our actions, but because of the way in which we see boys. How do we see them? That's a very hard question. It is a generally feeling of love and protection. In fact, most of us would be much, much more likely to defend a child in trouble, either gender, than the average person. This strong love (yes, love) is very confusing and can be perverted by Satan or just the flesh into something sexual. This generally only happens to a very powerful extent if somebody is isolated in hate or fear. This leads to the type of community that you have seen elsewhere. Because society rejects them as evil, they find relative comfort in affirming their most obscure feelings and embracing things they would never have if they were properly encouraged. This happens in many parts of society with various issues, but I think you get the drift. This is not a place for that. This is a place that lets us know that we are not alone. It gives us strength to push aside that lust and do good. You may find it scary to be alone in a room with a man, but why? Do you actually think that you would have sex with him if he tried? I can honestly say that I would not with a boy. The sexual part is kinda abstract in that way. It's just some wierd thing that is part of this adult body, but nothing I would consider, or even want to, act on. It probably never would have been a big concern if I hadn't been so worried about being one of those awful people that everyone hates. With that said, I am not running around trying to find boys to be with. I just have a special love for them. You may respond to that by saying, "Have some kids!" Hehe, well, maybe after I get a job I'll consider that and pray about it. I do hope that if I do there will be other adults, men and women, who have a positive effect on my kids. Also, if my child ever experiences these temptations I want him/her to know that they are not evil. We must strive to beat temptations and move forward with our lives boldy for God. They should never feel like most of us here felt when we started getting these feelings. I know that this doesn't make a lot of sense, but thank you for listening. I hope you had a good church service. |
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