This is probably stupid........
Submitted by Reason Filled on 2002-12-17 12:04:17, Tuesday
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This may not work for everyone, however I wish to share a certain thought process I utilize that helps me stay in control. Sexual desire, as we all know, can be quite burdensome when we get close to a yf. We are originally programmed to desire sexual activity with our spouse. It is a display of trust and love. In the original design, we are to share our sexual selves only with the person we are wed to. Through sex we share an intimate and private part of ourselves that we share with no one else. It is because of our absolute love and trust, that we share with our spouse, that we expose something so personal to them. Well, through the fault of man, those desires can get quite mixed up. I can say that, personally, many of those desires have invaded my relationship with boys. As a result, a large part of the sexual desire that I posess, towards boys, is stemmed from a desire to share something so personal and intimate with them, that I would be the only one they would share it with. The problem with this is; A)it would be a mentally unhealthy relationship, and B) it is against God. So, I practice a certain mind exercise that helps me to cope with the feelings. First, I acknowledge to myself that my yf, if aware of my desires, would, out of love for me, most likely share that most intimate part of himself with me. Second, I acknowledge that, oblivious to my yf, that type of activity would ultimately affect my yf in a profoundly negative way. Therefore, out of my love for my yf, I do not lay that burden upon him. At his tender age, he shall never know of the feeling that I struggle with. I refuse, out of my love for him, to allow my faults to negatively affect him, or his relationship with God. The reason this helps me is because it takes away, somewhat, my desire to share something so personal with my yf. I'm basically saying to myself, "He would, but I won't let him." Similarly to someone that loved you so much that they would die for you, or go to jail for you. Yes, they would do those things for you, but you wouldn't WANT them to do those things, because you love them. Anyways, take my ramblings here for what they are worth, which is probably not much. I shall shut up now. :) |
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