Overwhelmed
Submitted by Von on January 12 2000 at 08:13:06
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Dear Brothers in Christ Jesus, I come to you with a heavy heart. It seems as though Satan in winning the battles in my life to separate me from the Love of God. Since getting this computer, I have used it for viewing pictures of boys and reading erotic stories. These words and images have filled my heart and mind and I feel as though they are seeds of sin. Boys are beautiful. But to use them as material for sexual fullfillment seems so wrong and unhealthy. I think that problems I am facing now( on the verge of losing my apt., the loss of my car, no intimate loving relationships, etc.)are the result of my feeding the impure thoughts and images gotten off the internet. I would love to have a pure love for boys in my heart, and not the lies and corruptness I now have. I ask for your prayers to Christ Jesus to help me through this difficult time. I pray that God guide my thoughts. I need a new place to stay and I need a car. Since my landlady told me she no longer want to rent out the apt., I have been filled with worry and anxiety. I know this is not what God wants for me. But I cant help but believe all this is due to the sins I have committed. We reap what we sow. Please pray for me. I welcome your thoughts and wisdom in these matters. Thank you. Von |