I am an failure!
Submitted by Love on June 18 2000 20:31:38
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I was raised in Los Angeles Foster Care. That is why I was gay. It was almost a requirement! I have been celebate for about 20 years now. However, I was unable to fix my life and so do not have a family. I live feeling deprived of a family. My life lacks joy because I was unable to obey God and His Son. Now, unless the end comes very soon, I expect to die alone and unloved - except by God and Jesus. I guess this should be enough; but I feel that I have failed to realize the perfect plan that was laid-out for me. I performed cancer detection as my career, saving hundreds of thousands of humans life years. Yet, I regard my life as a failure. I was unable to love enough to create a God loving family. I failed to teach others of the love of God. I deserve to live alone, and I deserve feeling the full burden of my lonliness unto death. I do hope that other kids do not make the same kind of mistakes as I have made. Obey Jesus. He said that we must love our neighbors - even the ones who are our enemies. Jesus also wanted us to spread this message throughout the world so that in the harvest time there would be an abundance of people strong enough to carry the burden of helping to enculturate the dead as Jesus calls them to come out from their memorial tombs. I have learned some things: it doesn't matter if I feel bad. It doesn't matter if I am hurt. It doesn't matter if I am killed. THESE ARE ALL TEMPORARY THINGS. What maters is that God's Kingdom comes and Jesus locks-up Satan and his Demons for the thousand year rule. Then, without the influence of Satan, we will all have the opportunity to choose what is truly right. The system of "things" will be suspended; and a system of "truth" will rule. Until the final temptation, people will not be driven by desires; but will be able to make rational choices based upon what is right. Then, when Satan is released, he will be allowed to tempt mankind only one last time. Satan, and all those following him, will then be destroyed at last. HALLELUJAH! |
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