Hello there everybody. I mainly visit boylinks and sometimes boychat. I just found out about this site and wanted to say a few things and hope someone can give me advice or their opinion. I was saved back in 1987 but really have not been a good christian due to drinking. Two weeks ago I started getting back involved with going to church and biblestudy and things. Alcohol has really been messing up my life and I want to change my ways for the better. All of this time i have been a boylover. Now that I am progessing in my faith and activities I am feeling upset about myself for liking boys. Is it wrong to love boys? I do not think I can stop loving boys. there is nothing more beautiful to me than a boy. I do believe in nonsexual relationships with boys, that is no problem. I would love to have a relatonship with a boy where we are friends and go places together, talk etc. but what if the boy wants the relationship to go farther? What if he iniates some kind of sexual play? Do I refuse or not? If I refuse he will think I do not like him etc, if I go along with it then I might feel guilty about it and will have that constant worriness of him telling somebody about it, know what I mean? I know a nonsexual relationship is the best way to go but the temptations are great. When I was at church last sunday, a boy was sitting in front of me and I could not help staring at him. I was thinking to myself how bad it was to look at this boy and think about him while at church. That has to be wrong. In the bible it says not to have lustful thoughts about a person but it is hard to do when I see a young boy who is cute with a body to match.

So now you all kinda know what I am going through, I am sure you have had this same situation. I just need some advice on how to handle this. Try to stop loving boys altogether or still love boys but in a nonsexual way etc. I must say one thing, I have never had a sexual relationship with a boy before, just some innocent playing around a couple of times and that is all. Any advice or opinions will be greatly appreciated. Thanks all.