so for you it is porn because of your fantasies??

I don't know if it's because of my fantasies, per se. When I look at shirtless or speedo clad boys, I'm not usually fantasizing having sex with them. (Although I must admit that those are sometimes my maturbation fantasies.) When I'm "admiring" boys' bodies, it's because it just gives me pleasure or comfort. It's not because it gives me an erection or anything. This is when I tell myself that I'm just admiring God's handiwork. But even though I think young girls' bodies are cute too, I don't get the same pleasurable feelings when I look at them. So that tells me that my "admiration" of boys' bodies is because of some kind of sexual pleasure zone it's connecting to, even if I don't neccesarily get sexually excited. So as a Christian, I feel I shouldn't be catering to this kind of pleasure. But it's a struggle.

Dakota