I have worried that my love for my yf will fade as he ages... that it is his boyhood I'm in love with rather than the person himself.

And now that boyhood is being quickly swallowed up by adolescence my fear and my love is being put to the test.

Looking back, I realise that I must have seen my yf around in my community for several months without noticing him in any kind of special way. It wasn't like he was the most stunning looking creature... love at first sight and all that jazz... it just wasn't.

Circumstances brought the two of us together over a common activity and we started to get to know each other. In all my years of marriage I'd had boys come and go in my life but I'd never fallen in love with any of them.... I'd never let myself. But then my wife told me (that first time) that we were over and I believed her. I let my guard down and suddenly I noticed this boy with new eyes... my little friend suddenly became my sunshine.

Nearly 4 years later and we are now good friends. My love for him is strong and I am enjoying the Godly man he is becoming. We talk God together and pray together and sigh... he grows up.

I feel encouraged... I really beleive I have been a force for good in his life.... and I can look back on our time through his boy years and have no regrets about how I behaved towards him. He makes me glad and grateful that I'm a boylover.

Blessings
Cat.