so I had a talk with my mom about 'life' in general, the future, $$, etc. and she was really bugging me with the "one day you're gonna have kids of your own and...what's their life gonna be like?"

sounds harmless enough. the problem is that she already knows about my 'problem'. not completely, actually, but they already know that my sexuality is a bit slanted. i think they're in denial. they think it's gonna go away when i meet the right girl ("when you REALLY fall in love...").

i kept dropping hints through the conversation: "i've NEVER had a girlfriend, and i'm not that young anymore", "I wanna concentrate on XXXX before I start a family", "i'm not even sure i want a family".
all she kept doing was telling me i'm wrong, it'll come before i realize, so I should be preparing for it, making a solid foundation for the rest of my life and those that'll come after me, etc, etc.

which brings out issues i've been sweeping under the rug. i don't know what i want. well, i know what i want: YF=live happily ever after. but that's not realistic, is it?