Hi Hopesalive, Thanks for posting. Wow, I can totally relate to the feeling of not needing the sexual part when you are with him. It is as soon as you part that the sexual desire kicks in. This is exactly the type of 'medicating' that I am talking about. In the absence of a way to fully connect, our body is looking to somehow fill an emotional void. No, you cannot marry him, and moreover he will grow up and eventually become uninteresting to you. All of us have probably gone through that cycle many times in our lives. It is one of the true tragedies of boylove, because it is a love that can never last (at least in the exact state that it exists in when they are at that perfect age). I don't have any answers, my friend. Just want you to know that you are not alone. Love, Ben |