Doubts
Submitted by GRA on July 17 1999 at 18:42:54
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I am a boylover and also a christian, and I don't know which one of them is the most difficult to live with. Being a boylover is unacceptable to me, I hate it, and I feel guilty all the time. How can it be right? God designed the man to be with a woman. Having these feelings for boys, makes the purpose of God to me, impossible. If these feelings were on one my fingers, I already had it amputated. But they are somewhere deep in my soul, untouchable, and I can't do nothing about it. I don't know how many times I had asked God to set me free, but it haven't happened yet. Somedays I found myself in a dark place that makes me feel that there is no hope for me, like today. How can I live like that? I whish I was different... I'm not happy and I will never be,feeling the way I feel. I need to hear from someone please... GRA. |