struggles.
Submitted by konotok on November 17 2001 20:04:43
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i used to be the victim. but that was a whole 10 years ago and now im 18 and im the sicko. and i turned to drugs becuase they were my only friends, but they would never stay and keep me company. now ive found that jesus is undeniable and hes helping me out but it still doesnt change the fact that ive got no one on this earth. im a catholic(no protestant/catholic debate please) and i thought about become a priest but the one priest that i told i was a bl said, "if any religious order knew about you they wouldnt get near you". well shoot man. what does God want us to do. change the hearts of people so that EVEN WE can be loved, or should we castrate ourselves. one of the priests in the order i wanted to join up with found out about me so they probley wont want me in to join with them. while i was going to confession to him he prayed over me, and spoke in tounges, and then told me all of my sins. he knew i was atracted to boys, he knew about the sex from when i was a kid, he knew about my dad beating my head against the floor when he, my dad, found out that i was a pedo. have any of you ever dreamed about how nice it would be to be straight. straight people have it soo easy and they dont even relize the gift God has given them. all i can say is that i cant wait to get off this planet, i just hope im on good terms with Christ when it happens. i dont think theres a question here. i just wanted someone to listen and you are the ear i turned to. |
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