Ok, then how about this???
Submitted by Ringo on 2002-12-2 20:10:06, Monday
In reply to Re: When did we all become Platonists?? submitted by Reason Filled on 2002-12-2 19:54:07, Monday
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I know that (re: your saying that a lifetime of anal sex is unhealthy). But what then would you say to the 13yo Ringo, the one who (over Christmas vacation in 1993) suddenly thought to himself, "You know, I only have a semester more to be with them." And who when he thought that knew that he was referring to the boys in his class. This, the boy who had up until that moment had nothing but thoughts for women. Who, in fact, had quite a large crush on a very pretty girl in his class. This attraction to girls which would, in fact, become less and less pronounced as the spring semester wore on, and vanish completely by the time he got to high school. He did not "choose" to be this way, was not spurning any gift that God had given him. If anything, he was embracing God's gift of friendship, for these boys to which he suddenly became attracted were the first friends he'd ever had. Where is Satan in that? I don't know what prompted this thought to come into my head, or for it to be manifested to this extreme (extreme to the fact that it completely displaced my previous orientation). I guess you could say exactly what I hope you will not say: "Satan prompted it, because he tempted you, and you took the bait." Please do not degrade yourself or myself by saying this, because this is taking the easy way out. When we respond to anything objectionable (or contrary to our worldview) by saying "It's Satan's fault", we are becoming mere parrots, capable of repeating only one damnable catch-phrase which robs us of our individuality and desire to think for ourselves. It is misusing and abusing our God-given ability to think for ourselves and formulate a better answer. So what of it? Was it Satan? Was it God? I would have to say that the years 1985-1993 were the worst of my life. Beaten and tormented on a daily basis, harassed and exiled to the point where I contemplated suicide almost daily. No 10yo should have to do that. No 12yo should have a dream where he guns down his entire class, then wake up refreshed because this dream actually made him happy, so bad was his misery and hatred for life. Conversely, the years 1993-present have been the best 10 years of my life. I have been blessed with friends, many more friends than I ever thought 1 person could deserve (especially such a worm as me), my parents have been wonderful and understanding of my orientation (as have these friends who do ot share it), I have been blessed with a wonderful boy who also knows about me and is perfectly ok with it (though he is a heterosexual, he sees nothing wrong with me being in love with him). All these wonderful things... Might it not be that it was God testing my for those first 13 years of my life, preparing me for the hardship that lay ahead? And when he saw that I could emerge from such brutality unscathed, scared, tired, ineptly prepared for the reality that is life but damned willing to try, that he rewarded me for my suffering by granting me all of the wonderful gifts that I have lifted above? Because if you see my bl as something granted by Satan, then I have to say that you've got your deities reversed, my friend. At least in my opinion. In any event, thank you for responding. I will continue to check here every hour and respond to you again should the need arise. Now I am off to write. I hope we can continue this and hopefully arrive at some sort of knowledge consensus. ((())) Ringo |
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