New here
Submitted by rylan on August 12 1999 at 22:31:12
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Hello. I'm new here and relatively uncomfortable but I need some answers to my questions and hope the forum here could help me. First off, and forgive me, I do not necessarily consider myself a Christian although I do believe in the ideals and values of most TRUE Christians. (I've found that many people who profess to be so are very unforgiving and non-understanding when it comes to situations such as ours. I have no use for 'Sunday' Christians.)I 'lost' my religion years ago due partly in fact, I believe, trying to understand this 'affliction' and feeling it was/is rejected by God. I am currently trying to find if and where any spirituality belongs in my life. I am in my late 30s and have known I've been a BL for a long time. I have accepted the fact and believe that in some ways it has made me a better and more compassionate person. Yes, I have the sexual feelings, but stronger in me are the feelings of love, caring, and compassion. I am not ashamed of being a BL, however I do not understand it. We are 'damned' and 'condemened' and people choose to ostracize us rather than try to understand. That is the part I cannot live with comfortably. Why must it be this way? I wish more than anything that I could talk freely about it to someone but unfortunately in our society I cannot. I feel so lost and alone just wishing for someone to share my feelings with who would not 'report' me, degrade me or label me a pervert. I AM NOT! Can someone help me answer these key questions on my mind? 1.) Why did God make us this way? 2.)Why must we have sexual feelings towards boys as well as those of a caring and compassionate love? 3. What, if anything, does the Bible say about Boylovers? Thanks for reading and listening. I hope I find some answers. Maybe it will be the key to helping me regain my faith. My journey is just starting. I hope to post here often. |