I for one am so grateful for my attraction to boys. Without it I am afraid I would probably just be an apathetic christian. I'm glad that I know I can't make it through this life ignoring God.

I was thinking about this just the other day. I believe that God did NOT create me to be BL (and that these attractions are a "warping" of his good design). However, that being said, if I could somehow have a "do over" and NOT have to deal with these struggles (and the other things I have dealt with in my life) ... would I do it? It would be a tough decision, but I think I might very well choose to remain as I am, rather than to risk being someone who doesn't have a need for God. The person I am now is the sum of all of my life experiences (and the way God has shaped me through those experiences). Despite the struggles I still have, would I want to be someone else (which, essentially, I would be if it were not for all my life experiences)? I don't think I would. I like what God has done in me (even though, at times, it is not an easy life).

Blessings,
Rainboy