Your first paragraph echoes my sentiments exactly. I'm really trying to find some answers myself, and I think the posters and community here is the best place to start. You've seemed to already have come to a place where you believe God's will is that sex under anything other than heterosexual monogamy is sinful, and even though you don't know why you are secure in that. I don't have that security, and who knows- I may end up in the same place at the end of things. But God has never left me wondering why, and He's never given me a commandment that hasn't made sense after a period of faith. Currently I've gone through a period of faith, and the foundation of that faith has been shaken. You know what I mean I assume, when you see and experience things that are directly contrary to what you expect based on your Christian beliefs. Maybe I will reach a point where I just have to take it on faith—but so far I really don’t feel that’s the case. I would just throw blinders on, but I cannot. My eyes have been opened to new things, things that some here may not understand or believe- and hence they will not come to the same conclusions. I've tried to just believe blindly, but it's failed. So, here I am- questioning. Peace and Love friend, Plato |