Submitted by Eldad
PS - how come the person who complimented me on my bike last night was 30 not 13! Not fair ;)
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Cause my bike is a flashy pro bmx type trick bike =) hehe

But anyways I see what everyone is saying and its true, I lack experience in relationships and friendships and furthermore I am extremely immature, in fact I am still like a kid myself, instead of an adult I act more like one of their peers and inevitably we end up becoming best friends.

But this isn't intentional, its just me I have always had problem with not being able to act like an adult, I seem to have more in common with a 13 year old then I will ever have with any adult. I still dress like a young teen, I still skateboard and play video games all day and I have failed to mature from all the hobbies and activities I enjoyed from when I was a young boy myself. Furthermore I look 15 years younger then I really am, I dont know if this has anything to do with the fact that I actually feel %100 like a teenager, in fact I even fool myself. I even have the same agility and skinny appearance I did when I was teen and I seem to be able to beat my YF's at skating tricks, bike tricks, basketball and video games even though I would have assumed with age those things would have become more physically difficult.

My YF's parents all seem to think That I am a teen, I even forget how old I am, literally, even my parents treat me like a kid because I cant help but act like one and they always tell me that I need to grow up, sometimes they even forget how old I am !!! I forget that my YF's are younger then me, in fact sometime they act more mature than me, I do have more deeper issues then being just BL... I am having great difficulty growing up, not just the idea of it but more so the fact that I cant seem to do it even when I try, both physical appearance and emotional. I must have some sort of weird disorder.

But I don't understand how all this is the cause for ruining my friendships, if I am spoiling them they should appreciate it more, why is it having a negative effect ? Thanks everyone for the advice.