So, what happens when you fall in love?
Submitted by Huck Finn on 2002-06-22 13:36:41, Saturday
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I've had it happen when a 10 year old YF knew he was like best friends with me... My first and closest... or at least till now. I've talked about this boy before. He's a wonderful 13 year old who I call JB. And we have been spending a bit of time together this summer. It's been truly wonderful. And yesterday we spent so much time in the pool together that his feet were looking like prunes! Not only his hands and fingers, but his feet. Weird huh? But that's not what I wanted to share and talk about. It seems to me that we're falling in love. Why do I say this? A few insances. He's very affectionate even around others (girls included and not just around the guys). But yesterday, when we were swimming, he said something along the lines of, "Well, why don't you just kiss me on the cheek?" And I did. And he gave me this huge smile. A few times when we were swimming, he gave me "the look." You know.. the look of total admiration. That look of when you're faces are about 4 inches apart and you stare into each others eyes in total silence after something funny or serious. Your noses draw a bit closer. That second where you know if you close your eyes something else is going to happen. That moment where your souls are connected before anything physical happens. We were there. And his beautiful blue eyes are staring into mine and all of a sudden.... I.... dunk him. But things could have gone so much differently. I don't know if I want them to. Why? Well, because our relationship is based out of church. :-\ not only is it taboo, but I don't want to confuse him. Our church, he, and I are not supporters of homosexuality. I don't care to get into the debate, but that's our belief. We don't condemn homosexuals, but we believe it is wrong like lieing, stealing, drunkeness, etc. Not to mention the fact that he's obviously under the AoA and I'm over it. So, this brings me to the question... what happens when you fall in love. And I'm confusing him aren't I? Or maybe I'm helping him understand. But what is this? I doubt with JB it's just friendship he sees us as. IT's a special bond. Probably stronger than anyone he's ever encountered. Not a mom and dad... not a peer. Not a lover. Not a best friend... but something more special than any of those. A BL perhaps. Unconditional love and acceptance. Exactly what Jesus wants us to have with each other, right? Where is love? someone told me once it was underneath the willowtree. Maybe that's why they call them weaping willows. Confused but still smiling. Huckie I originally posted this on a non-Christian board. But I wanted to check what my Brothers have to say. :-\ And yes, I do believe our relationship is healthy. And prayer for us, I want to start a bible study with JB and another boy. I want to focus our relationship more towards Christ and not toward us. :-\ :::sigh::: But what do I do when we're in love? |
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